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Who gets married at 17...

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 13:18:51 GMT

Yeah I have been helping my friend Celina move into her new apartment with her fiancee Javier. She is like... 17 and already getting married. I could NEVER do that lol. In about a month I won't have to worry about it either =)18th b-day baby!!!

Oh and Erica got accepted into BuffState!! OMG I better get in there with her. Well at least UB if not BuffState =) I really dont want to go to ECC.

Kari's birthday today!! I got her a t-shirt but it's going to be hard to give it to her. Rarely see her except for in school but thats for like.. a few seconds.

Oh, and I am probably the happiest I have ever been. Not right now... but overall. For the last few months. I have always had something bad on my mind. Something that, even during the best of times, would cast a dark cloud over everything else. So I was never truly happy... But now I have found something to counteract that negative "shadow". I have found something to think about, even when everything else is going wrong. I think its obvious that I am going to defend that something with my life... with everything I can possibly protect it with.

I never want to lose you =)

For that special someone in my life...

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 00:28:24 GMT

Angel come to me. To me. Come to me.
Angel belong to me. To me. Belong to me.
Angel you have wings to fly. Fly to me
Angel do you doubt. No need to have doubt

Angel feel my love. My love for you. Feel my love for you
Angel carry me to you, to your home. To paradise
Angel I would lie for you, for you just for you with my yearning heart
And angel I would die for you. For you just for you with my burning heart

Angel don't feel liable. For me and my pain don't feel liable
Cause angels must be free. High up from this world in eternity

Angel I could clip your wings to catch all your love to calm your pain
But angel this would be so wrong you would bleed to death immediately
So angel come to me heal my glaring pain voluntarily

Fuck you for making me write this.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 23:38:51 GMT

Yeeaauuhhh... this is my first effing post mutha fuckas. You know it just drips sex all over, doesnt it? Ok well lets see... I haven't taken a shower in like a whole day. I usually take like 2 a day but.. idk. My innate laziness has been getting to me lately. I deff drove all over the effing city today trying to find people to do stuff with... wound up just chilling at home anyways. Found out my pajama pants have this huge ass hole in them from like... my knee up to my upper thigh. Weee wooo paul showing off a little leg.

Really got back in touch with the industrial/aggrotech section of my music tastes. It's weird as hell cuz like.. I have such a varied taste in music that sometimes I will let a whole genre or two atrophy off in my mind. Then one day it will all be BAM right back in my head and I spend the whole day chilling to that shit. Today it was.. Psyclon Nine/Wumpscut/VNV Nation. I just got out of my trippy hippie Sublime/311 phase lol. Not that I don't like them, cuz I love them to death. But they are just on the backburner now. Time to kick it oldskool with some morbid shit. WOOT WOOT!!

OMG I HAD THE BEST ZUCCHINI AND SAUSAGE BAKE EVER TODAY FOR DINNER. MY SISTER = BEST COOK EVER!!! I know thats random but guess what, deal with it. It was fucking good and u know u wish u were there to have some. Too bad cuz now we have like... leftover ribs from last night adn elftover bake from tonight in the fridge. My whole family is going to be looking at me to clean out the fridge again by eating it all lol =P

Oh and Erica's hair is effing pink/red/brown. I think she said she was going to go all blue today. Lmao I LOVE my freak friends, I wouldnt be alive today without them!! I can't wait for TITS to start up again so that I can go and be as weird looking/acting as I fucking want and I wont have someone leaning over my shoulder making me feel guilty for wanting to look freaky. I love being a freak... thats because I am one lmao. Oh yeah and the booze that I get down there helps also. OMG I need to go to a concert so badly. It's just hard as hell to get a band "hard" enough for my tastes to come and play at a Buffalo venue. I think CKY/Eighteen Visions/Avenged Sevenfold are coming soon... but I only like CKY a lot... Eighteen Visions is ok. Avenged Sevenfold... eh I am not paying to go see them lol.

Ok well I am done talking to you people. Payce.